Friend to Talk part 1

Udah setahun aku kerja, wowow, dan aku nyadar setelah nonton film kemarin. Mungkin udah pada liat kan ya, the edge of seventeen. Aku ngerasa banget kalo ngabisin masa muda dengan sesuatu hal yang gak guna. Aku punya temen tapi just friend, love them tapi aku terlalu nutup dan nyendiri. Bukan berati aku pendiem, the opposite aku terlalu chatty. I’ve found my comfort zone, and never leave that. So, everytime they ask me to go out, just hanging around I always refuse it, just pass it and back to comfort zone-my beloved bedroom with ton of books waiting to read by me. And I bloody regret it now. At my early twenty four-born in january, several weeks ago right. My mom never stop asking ‘where’s you boyfriend’. Can i just find anyone, somebody, men along the way i back from my work place, can’t I. little bit too depress this time. To pathetic, am I really looks desperate.
I never use any ring on my fingers, please men look at my hand no string attach, I’m not in whatever kind of relationship right now. I just accepted that mostly i face someone strange all the way emmm like go anywhere they call me ‘buk’ the word that describe girl who already married and have kids, it’s that my face looks so old, yeah I always love old school stuff, but that doesn’t mean I looked that old, right. So much preasure in my life. Can i back in 2009 and became high schooler, and open my heart. If that’s happen maybe i already have ring on my bloody fat finger.

So here I am, actually i want to make a novel, sounds cool, but no. i’ll write story and post in my blog every week or month and it’s about vampire who lived around us. The title is “Emil Family”, sorry maybe “Evil Family”, sounds better.
See ya next week, i’ll make it bilingual then. In english and bahasa, beside my english is not that good, so maybe if there's any mistake i’m sorry and let me know which part it is.